I'm very very happy with my results this sem! =DDD the happiest was knowing that i could do it!
the only regret? i should really bang my head against the wall for not working hard from sem 1 onwards.
but no use crying over spilt milk! and i can't say i have not enjoyed the days i spent slacking over the first 4 sems in NUS. opportunity cost, and limited resources!
i didn;t do as well as expected for welfare econs. but nevertheless, i still love welfare econs!
ps. i'm doing better for my sociology modules than my SW modules. someone remind me again what i'm majoring in???
back to the expectations topic.
even when expectations are ironed out, even when people come to understand the differences between expectations, things don't just end there. instead what comes after that? who gives in and who doesn't? who changes and who doesn't? how do we reconcile these changes we have to make with our initial expectations? things wouldn't work out if both parties refuse to budge, but neither would the ending be the whole happy-ever-after ending if one gives in, yet isn't all too happy or satisfied about it?
understanding each other's expectations is the start of all problems, or only the tip of the iceberg, definitely not the end.
haix. life is complicated.
i love sushi!
Sunday, May 30, 2010
criminal minds 100th episode ;11:47 AM

The 100th episode was heart-breaking and heart-wrenching. All the 99 episodes, I've never seen Supervisory Special Agent Aaron Hotchner drop a tear, not to mention cry. No, he's not void of emotions or numb to his job, rather he covers it well. Yet after 99 multiplied by 45mins of showtime, I watched Aaron Hotchner tear as his wife left her last words for him before she was brutally killed by a serial killer which also happens to be Hotch's arch enemy. Hotch's impressive. Even with knowledge of his wife's death, even as he sobbed his way into his house where his wife - now dead - and the killer were, he performed the duties of a FBI agent. That was impressive. The breakdown only came much later when most of the stuff was settled.
What a heart-wrenching 100th episode that was. I knew that was going to happen because I read the synposis from wiki already. But to see the it play out like that on screen? It's way too heart breaking. Especially Haley's last words.
I think I've found a show that's as good as Grey's Anatomy. And I hope to see the 200th and the 300th and the 400th of criminal minds. =)
i love sushi!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Exam madness ;9:23 PM

wee! what we went through during exam period!
the pasta comes from the cafe in amk lib! what we usually had when we were studying there!
that tongy is the tortoise xinni always brought with her to study! rarr poor thing. always kept in that bag hahha
i love sushi!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
self-determination??? ;1:06 AM
I was talking to baby dear about this, and i thought i wanted to jot down my thoughts for future reference. I have v v bad memory. haha. so every1 can skip the bottom or sit through a boring naggy post ! haha
There is this big big ethical issue in social work which advocates self-determination except for situations of self harm, harm to others, or with legal consequences. After defining the limits to self-determination, we'd probably ask how do we define what self harm and harm to others is right? it's easy to tell the legal boundaries where provisions for self-determination can be made, but it's never a clear-cut case for self-harm and harm to others. Does self harm only entail actions that put the person's life in danger, or actions that has significant impact on a person's quality of life? think about a homeless person, assuming the low-crime record Singapore has is accurate enough, living on the streets probably wouldn't put one's life into much danger i guess. But with the lack of privacy or even a simple resting place where one can be totally away from the public eye, where one can feel fully secured, how can we say that it's not self-harm? i don't know about others, but my definition of self-harm does, and definitely includes significant impact on a person's quality of live. And while Singapore gets 1st in so many things, i'm pretty sure our society is able to provide a reasonable QOL for it's people. And yet, there are people homeless, some not because they deserve it, but because they refuse to accept help be it from the maintenance of parent's act or other services. Hence with adequate resources to aid, do we want to overlook the self-determination of our clients at times when we clearly see that they are harming themselves or others. But I guess the problem comes when people define the notion of self-harm or harm to others differently. I am not a good social work student, hence i wouldn't be able to tell you if any social work agencies have actually defined the notion of what the word 'harm' actually entails. But without a common definition, expectations differ and that's usually the main reason for conflict isn't it?
I do not oppose the notion of self-determination, I think I do understand it's existence and the benefits, human rights etc that it brings about. And I question myself many many many times if I were a social worker and whether I would have superior judgement over my client to decide what is better for him than to let him make the decision. I stand by latter which leaves the power in the hands of the client, but the line has to be drawn somewhere. Where do we draw the line between actions and situations that harm and do not harm? Sometimes we think we have a common understanding, but when we dig beyond the surface, we realize that we might have different ideas of where to draw the line.
and i guess i do have to think about where I draw my line at. Yet i'm aware that this line is also determined by the agency that i'm working with in the future...
i love social work and sociology!
i love sushi!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
;9:49 PM
sometimes i do wonder if i'm in the wrong major. i love social work, but sociology fascinates me. but sociology wouldn't be able to offer me the career that studying social work could offer. rarrr
i hope i spend this holiday meaningfully!
ps. meaningful as defined by me!
i love sushi!